Monday, 23 November 2009

Stressed Out



I'm in the middle of reading a scene in a book where the hero is being coerced, through threats and intimidation against himself and the other hero, into doing something he doesn't want to do. It's one of those scenes where the villain uses his physical strength coupled with a weapon to force the hero to do something he finds distasteful and abhorrent. The hero, as you can imagine, is very stressed about this and worried about the other hero at the same time. Whilst I'm reading this scene, I could feel my stress levels rising with the hero and I became very anxious. I could hardly bear to keep on reading and yet also felt compelled to continue, to find out how the hero was going get out of the situation or whether he would have to do as the villain ordered. In the end I was quite thankful when my daughter's gymnastics class finished and I had to stop reading. However, I'm still feeling the stress of it, because in the back of my mind I'm still involved in the story and worried about having to go back straight into that stressful scene. In some ways I wish I had been able to read on past that part before having to stop reading.

I've always found this when I read books where the bad guy gets the upper hand and seems to hold all the cards and the poor hero (or heroes) is at the mercy of the villain. I get so that I can barely continue and I want to skip ahead because my emotional investment in the characters becomes just too much, too involved. My heart starts pounding and my anxiety levels go through the roof.

This reminded me of a conversation I had with a friend the other day about the film Bridget Jones' Diary. She'd watched it recently when I'd loaned her the DVD and when I asked her what she had thought of the film, the conversation went a bit like this...

Me: What did you think?
Her: I didn't really like it, to tell you the truth.
Me: Oh? Why was that?
Her: I found it almost too embarrassing to watch. The way that she made a total fool of herself all the time really stressed me out and I kept wanting to stop watching or leave the room.

I didn't find the film at all stressful. I sympathised with Bridget's plight and although some parts of the film did contain some socially awkward sections that made me squirm a little, I certainly didn't get anxious or want to leave the room.

In some ways this shows how us humans are all wired differently. I expect there are plenty of you who could read the scene I'm reading and feel only a mild sense of peril for the heroes, or watch Bridget Jones' Diary and be either collapsed with laughter at the situations in which she finds herself or curled up in embarrassment.

So what about you? What gets your anxiety levels to spike? Is it the same as me, or something else? Perhaps the threat of an unknown assailant, or a ghost story or even something as simple as an argument between the heroes or their families.

23 comments:

  1. Jen, that it was one of the reasons I saw Love Actually only once. I could not look at it a second time. I cringed every time something awkward happened.

    As for books, when my hero is getting so trapped into tight situations I sometimes close the book and read on another time.

    I also get annoyed by people pushing into things they don't want to do at that time.
    Like in Purgatory when Luc dropped by at Reese's school.
    Leave them be. They will come around ... eventually.

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  2. Ingrid: And yet that scene from Purgatory is one of my absolute favourites!

    I've only watch Love Actually once but that because I found it mawkish and a bit too silly in places rather than embarrassing. There were too many plot lines for me to get emotionally invested in any of the characters so the whole romance of it fell flat for me.

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  3. But it has Hugh Grant in it. I have a soft spot for Hugh Grant

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  4. Ingrid: Well HG does have that old British charm thing going for him :).

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  5. Oh, good topic, Jen!

    I get really anxious while I'm reading if the author's managed to draw me in and make the characters feel real to me. One of the most vivid instances was reading the Adrien English books - in every one, I became sufficiently worried about Adrien's emotional safety (and sometimes physical safety, depending on the book) that I had to stop reading for a while.

    I usually end up balancing those reads with some nice fluffy m/m contemporaries in which no one's in any physical or emotional danger whatsoever.

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  6. Hi Chris
    Thanks :)

    I felt the same during the AE books too. It's a sign of a good writer if you are engaged so much in the characters that you suffer along with them or are worried for them.

    I think I may have retreat into my keeper shelf after finishing this book and curl up with a comfort read :).

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  7. I definitely stop/start/fast forward with film whenever I'm embarrassed, anxious, scared, etc by what I'm watching, but I'm not sure I do it with books. In fact, if anything I feel like I MUST keep reading to make sure that all is well. Hmmm. How interesting.

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  8. Kris: When I read paper books, I would flip through to see how many pages the stressful bit lasted and then skim through if things got really bad. I can't really do that with an e-reader so I have to suffer!

    I never FF through films!

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  9. I am like your friend (although I've never seen that movie and have no inclination), in that I find embarrassing moments REALLY hard to read and sometimes I kind of have to distract myself and go back and read it in bits and pieces or skip over it and then read it later. Not sure why but that is my trigger. I cringe on their behalf, I suppose it's a personal flaw, my fear of embarrassment.

    Being forced to do something at gunpoint, less so. I don't mind those kind of tense moments. At least I can't think of one that really got to me.

    I'll say in JCP's last Sweet Oblivion book I was trying to hide my eyes at a certain part and yet continue reading. I wanted to know but I was terrified what I'd find if I kept reading (and that I'd have to write her a scathing e-mail - which I didn't). It wasn't the gross factor (although that was there) it was more the "what would happen" thing. That really freaked me out (and people are going - WTF is she talking about? - you have to read the book and find out).

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  10. Tam: I do find some things too embarrassing to watch. I can't watch Fawlty Towers for example. I just want to curl up and die when I watch that :).

    *fingers in ears*
    Lalalalalalalalala

    Don't want to hear about the last SO book. The last 3 are still in my tbr pile (oh the shame). I need to convert book 3 from mobi to epub before I can read it and I keep forgetting to do that.

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  11. Seriously? Fawlty Towers? I LOVE Fawlty Towers. Maybe because it's so far over the top it's not realistic. Manuel was so funny.

    Convert those files girly. Hop to it.

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  12. I will skip ahead if it's embarrassing and cringe-inducing; there's whole sections of Katy-John I never read, and I won't even pick up Bridget Jones' Diary. I hate when people behave like idiots. Tension, though, I have to keep going. ;D

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  13. I can't skip through the stressful parts because sure enough if I do a few pages later will be a reference to something I missed that's important. Then I'd have to go back and read it all anyways.

    As for movies, if it gets to the point where it's cringe worthy I'll simple stop watching it. But that's something I simply can't do about reading. I've only ever not finished a book a few times out of thousands. Whereas I've given up on movies and tv shows tons of times.

    I guess when I say I'm addicted to books I'm not kidding! :D

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  14. Interesting point there, Lily. Hmm. I think I've stopped reading one m/m because something about the dialogue was just so wooden I couldn't read it anymore. (Maybe after a couple beers I wouldn't notice...)

    But I've stopped reading lots of non-m/m with nary a second thought, although more because it didn't engage me than because of angsting along.

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  15. Interesting topic!
    I'd have to say that extreme stupidity bugs me, in books but more so in movies. But I'm more stressed by - I guess you'd call it embarrassment? (Maybe there's a better word I can't think of at the mo').

    The most recent example for me is "One Shot" by Rowan McBride. I actually had to read that book backwards! I could see what was coming for Nick, and I just couldn't go through it with him.

    I didn't want to give up on the book, though, so I read the ending. Then I read the chapter before the end. Then I flipped back a little further, then I skimmed - backwards - until I got the whole story.

    And then, I read the book from start to finish. And after all that, I really liked the book!

    A little weird, huh?

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  16. I've had a similar reaction to certain prolonged, graphic BDSM scenes, which I find very, very discomfiting and not in the least bit sensual or romantic. I think it's from having had to endure an abusive husband. The experience is lodged like some chemical blocker in my brain that won't let me see past the humiliation (or what my mind perceives as humiliation).

    I get squirmy, and not in a good way, just thinking about it.

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  17. I tend to get very emotional when reading, especially if I'm worn out and should be sleeping (like a baby who becomes cranky when tired :P ).

    Usually I prefer to read tense moments instead of embarassing scenes, unless of course something really bad actually happens to the hero/es (e.g., James Buchanan's Cheating Chance, which I loved - but there's that one passage I won't read ever again, too painful for me).

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  18. Hi PD
    I think it depends just how embarrassing the scene is in my eyes. Hub can't bear to watch Meet the Parents but I think it's hilarious, but he can watch Fawlty Towers which I can't - hmmmm, strange that.

    Tense scenes get me every time. I have to read them whilst peeking round my fingers :).

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  19. Lily: I don't stop reading a book either, although I'm sometimes tempted to skim through some scenes if I get too upset with it.

    I think everyone here is addicted to books :).

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  20. Chris: Everything in books can be so much better after a couple of beers or a glass of wine. I have to watch that, if it's a book I'm reviewing or things that would annoy me when sober get missed :).

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  21. Wren: Not too weird, if it meant that you enjoyed the book as a result!

    I get what you mean about stupidity, especially in films. I've turned off many of those 'gross-out' films because I just wasn't interested in a load of grown men arsing about.

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  22. KZ: I can see how past experiences can impact on how you view a book. I can't read books where children are hurt or even where a child has died and the parents are grieving over that. It's just too easy to imagine myself in that situation should anything happen to one of my children.

    BDSM scenes rely very much on one person 'getting off' on the humiliation and I can see how you won't be able to relate to that if you had to cope with forced humiliation. I'm sorry that you had to deal with that in your past, KZ. No-one should.

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  23. Sara: I can't re-read that scene either! It's just too stressful, especially when we get it all from Nicky's point of view and live with his utter humiliation and embarrassment. I also find the confrontation scene at the cafe afterwards painful to read.

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